Safe?

 Losing are self is easy , hoping for other’s to make us feel safety is easier.  

The only way you can feel safe is when you learn how to care for your own feelings. The one that step all over you is not the one to  be blame Keep Screaming, Crying and even stop eating… The only one to be blame is you. If you give to much then you have nothing to go on with. Keeping your self safe is only on YOU.

 Loving your self is the Truth so the Truth will keep you safe.

Teodoro De Jesus

Waiting for?

Waiting for?

Nothing to be come something, seeing how it turns back in to nothing is almost what i am scare of.

Scare of  waiting, hoping, dreaming, and even getting old. Some people believe things will fall in to place on there own,  Sounds good, but I like to believe we all hold are own power , but the power of others is never yours... You can place your emotions, feelings and much more any were you want them to be, The rest will be history.

waiting for?

Nothing... Just stop waiting!

Teodoro De Jesus

Still Learning!!!

1, 2, 3 it seems just like numbers to you! At the end of the day, weeks and even the months are lost. The strength the words, the kisses and hugs are gone.

Still learning, to take care of my feelings is not easy is almost impossible, to stop looking for the way of love.

Still Learning, The heart, the feelings and the potentials of Love is not something you earn, is given to you.

Learn, Learn and Still Learning!

Missing what you never had.

Funny how we cry and miss what we never had, I am glad I got my self and the energy that makes me the way I am. There is nothing I need more then my self I got me and only me at the end that is more then enough. Why reminisce on what we never had.

There is no point Stop Missing what You Never Had.

Teodoro De Jesus

When you Whisper:

When you whisper on my ear (I Love You) It was just that, a whisper... the words weren’t clear enough to understand. Time goes by so fast now I understand why, today is the day I see clear. If you love some one don’t whisper, sometimes it can be a waist of words getting lost with the wind. If you Love me just Say it Loud and Clear.

Teodoro De Jesus

Distance & Miles Away:

Distance will never change is just that, even 25 miles away, I feel like is 6 hours from here, smiling you open your harms and hug me strong, I reply is not the same, now I have you harms away, but later you will be miles away. Tell me you going to be OK. Make me believe is better this way, I will cry and sadness will hold me till I fall a sleep.

Many times things change for a reason, distance is one of them today you have them here but tomorrow they can be far away, make every minute count if you have that special person next to you hug them kiss them and let them know how much you love them. You never know when distance takes them miles away from you.

Just like a Broken glass.

My heart on the grown, trying to collect all the pieces is impossible. There is something you need to learn; once you break my heart is just like a broken glass you will never get all the pieces back.

Turning back:

Turning back in time with memories and places is always hard to do especially when the memories are not as perfect, but there is always that some one you thinking of with many ideas of what if?

Turning back to find your self swimming in to many emotions some sad some strange some bad and some good.You come in to one conclusion, must of them overshadows the goods and the time you spend with that person was just one more chapter in your book,  you realize it was always better this way.

Turning back at this point is not a good idea, just take the best of it and keep it close to your heart. There is more to come your way good or bad? is yours to have, working for what you need, want and deserve must be your goal.

Turning back in time is not what I want, love, happiness and a life full of blessings for you is all I ask.

Teodoro De jesus

There's no GOODBYE.

There's no way I cant fall in love with you , the way you look, the way you talk , especially the way are lips lock together every time we kiss.

 I cant let you walk away without making love, this time i will run my lips all over your body, there is no time to stop and think for tomorrow today is the day.

There's no way of letting go, i will keep you in a special place were you can run free so you can show me true love.

There are only 3 things I will ask for:

1. Love me

2. Respect me

3. AND never make me say Good Bye.

Walking, running or flying?

Some times I think I am walking but really I am running then I stop and think .... I am not running i am flying. Time goes by so fast not a walk not a run is just the next flight to the future were nothing is clear yet only one thing is, you will walk , run and stop on your destination. Enjoy what you have today and make the best of it.

There are Many!

There are many things that come and go but only the ones you made happen will stay for ever... Mark your way and open doors for you.... Remember that the doors you open; only you can close them.

The Bitter Piano.

On the keys of this piano, were the notes go up and down, with these imperfect men. I use to play this perfect song, now the sadness of a broken Heart, are taking over with the pain, resentment and sorrows. I keep playing this bitter piano to only caress the tip of my fingers opening a forgotten wound in my soul, were only the crazy men can cope.

The sound of your voice brings me to a place I never been, every note creates a world full of this sweet pain. Only you can take me there and bring me back.  

Oh Heart of mine keep falling in love with this bitter piano, create a perfect broken heart.

Again and again playing by your darkest rules. Love and obsession are not the same but yet I learn both can go hand by hand creating Music from this broken men. Today I love and hate the melody's of this bitter piano all at the same time, you come to me note-by-note and sound-by-sound.

Even if this sick love burns and bends my fingers I will keep playing this old piano with the Melody of this simple heart, I will play them one by one over and over again only to fall in to empty words.

You are here!

Welcome to my heart , after all this time i see you have come back, with a smile that can change many sad memory's .

You are here, i see you coming my way not sure if this is right time for me to let you in , this time  i will give you a chance to show me better.

You are here !  i feel some connection to the feelings once i lost, this time i am willing to try it all .

You are here now is time to be happy next to you , i hope you are the one for me there is nothing i want more then the feeling of love, i am willing to receive what you have to offer.

You are here, please dont DISAPPEAR...

will you give it all up?

Will you give it all up?

For the one you love, making every morning full of joy and happiness, but there is something always in the back of your head making you scared to lose his love, hugging him and showing him how special he is to you is all you can do.

Will you give it all up? to make his heartbeat stay stronger for longer times, is the worry the sadness that makes you feel no hope. You wish for things to get better but they only get worst, there is nothing you can do to change the way of life.

Will you give it all up? to guide his sleep every night hoping is not the last, waking up the next morning trying to make the best of it , will you hide and cry your pain and worries out, to only find out his been crying longer.

Will you give it all up? will you stay here and wait for his soul to shine away from this room, listening to his last breath will be the peace in him , there is no way to hold him any longer is time to let destiny take over I will keep you in my heart till we meet again.

I will give it all up to see you again.

The dream of your eyes

Your eyes are like a dream, my love i am falling in to them, slowly i see my self trap in your eyes so full of colors Greens, Browns, and Blues. What a beautiful dream you keep me in, in a hard to explain trans, please keep me here dont blink dont move just live me here.

Wait... please dont cry,  now you telling me is time to go with a deep sadness i am starting to see your tears building up in your eyes, i am waiting and hoping they won't reach me, to only find out that i am already swimming in your tears.

I cant hold my breath any longer is time to go , you blink ones and start running down your cheeks all the way to your chin with no one to rescue me or catch me. All i can do is look up and keep running down with the memory's of a great dream, the dream of your eyes.

Alone

Alone, dose it mean feeling empty, looking around to only find out you are surrounded by people sharing the same feelings you have. How can you heard them if they all have empty souls, i keep looking to find my self in the same place i start long time ago .

Alone is what i am, like nothing in the middle of everything, alone with no exit to follow, alone you left me in the center of this city.

Looking at people coming and going knowing am not the only empty soul in this place, were we hope for almost the same things some for more some for less but we all hope for something, when there is noting to have is when we want it all.

Alone you left me, alone i will wait in this empty void, and till the end alone i will be.

Were is the love?

Were is the love? what is love? these are some of the many questions i ask my self every day, especially when i think it was here and then it's gone. I ask my self some more questions, was it here? did i really see it , feel it or dream it?

I finally got the answer to all of them , love is not here it never was, never had it or really felt it, but one thing i know is clear, love is just like a dream and like every other dream it's time to wake up.

If you are really here please Scream here i am!!! will i finally see you, feel you, or believe in you? tell me where is the love?

Imagine!

Imagine a place where only you have control, where nobody can take away your perfect plans. Imagine all the ones you love and the ones you didn't love so much being already part of your world.

What will it be like to share all the greatest things in life! Not only the greatest, but also the bad ones too, simply because we learn more from those situations. Always the bitter taste of bad times makes us remember not to make them again.

Imagine nothing but perfection.... then keep imagining. You can Imagine your own world. you and only you can create it and destroy it, never let any one tell you different. just Imagine how great your world can be.

Breathe:

I saw you after all this time, i have put you in a small white box with all my feelings inside, i tied it in to a knot, with a silk string,  hiding it all the way in the back of my closet.

Everything changed on that afternoon, i saw you and i ran home , opened my closet. breathing heavily i stop. I asked my self 3 questions... Breathe # 1 is he ready? breathe # 2 can i do this again? and finally breathe # 3 is it just my emotions? emotions rushing through my veins making me feel this way.

Slowly i was catching my breath, after having a conversation with reality i saw things clear again.

I realize all i need is time for things to fall in place. I am not sure if this is the answer i need ,but i will let time fix it all, and finally i will breathe again.

Words can turn in to knives!

Begging you to stop! All you do is keep hurting me with the best weapon you have, you're getting closer and closer to my heart.

Those words, with time will turn in to knives, you're penetrating my chest and the pain only gets deeper and deeper, getting closer to my heart.

What did i do to deserve these actions from you? you are turning in to a criminal. i will walk away before you finally stab my Heart and when that happens it will be too late. Remember words can turn in to knives.

Loving Star

My loving star you so bright and yet so far, looking up to the sky late nights brings me to a fantasy. No place to hide you still there, so many miles a way and i feel you next to me.

You bring me so much happiness , hope, love and a smile to my face, even so far you have the power to make me feel this way, your Happiness is the energy to make me go on every morning with a spark of Hope, hope to see you again and Love just because you are My Loving star.

Purple blankets:

I am so wrapped in these purple blankets, how can I bring my self out of this purple pain, all I see is purple everywhere … my heart is purple, my soul is purple, and all of my memories are purple. All I do is wrap my self in these blankets deeper and deeper.

Feeling trapped is not always a bad feeling to me, sometimes it's the only way I get to feel nothing and I see the memories as just that. I really feel purple. I have to see reality is right next to me telling me you only gave me a purple heart, I really need to see there are more colors out there for me.

Where are you? Who are you hurting now? I will never know the answers... but one thing I know for sure is that you will never hurt me again. I will some day soon come out of this purple pain where not even memories can bring me back. I will hide these purple blankets and never get in to them again.

Never Stop:

Keep going the path is yours, why stop don't wait for some one to pick you up, they will drop you when they find them self walking on your path.

Never stop, look in front of you there is a long way to go with your name on it. Always keep in mind the ones that love you will be happy, the ones that hate you will hate you more but only you will get the best feeling, because you walk your own path.

When you finally done it, take a minute and look back many will be walking on there own path learning what you already have.

Remember to never stop.

3 doors and one key:

Imagen 3 doors and just one key,

1. Love
2. Hope
3. Faith

Tell me which door will you pick and why!

I will tell you which one i pick.

Dreaming or Not!

Dreaming of what i can do tomorrow, not knowing if there is a tomorrow.
were will i go, what will i do ? Dreaming is just that! dream of what you need ,want or hope.

So many people claiming dreams come true, why them and not me? maybe this is not a dream. I will keep trying to wake up and find my reality, to only realize dreaming or not this reality is me.

Bring me Back

Will you bring me back? i am tired of falling in to this cracks , were is my way? every time i fall in to this empty space i see people lost for the same reason. questions that cant be answered or never will be.

If you the one, please let me know show me when and were is the way out of this memories. If you do, i will walk the way with out even taking a breath only taking the directions you give me fallowing you to the end, will you bring me back?